There's this weird fear that most people have of "growing up too fast." I'm, obviously, not one of those people. This fear is one of those things in life that I can't even begin to wrap my brain around, how can people grow up "too" fast?
A really awesome guy once said, "If you stop moving forward, you're moving backwards." Everyone is continually moving forward, and the instant you stop you begin to get left behind. I really wish I didn't have to watch people around me get left behind, but I have no desire to stop with them and goof off. Then again, I've never had the desire to goof off; maybe that's why I don't understand people who are scared of growing up.
If there's one thing that drives me nuts in this world, it's people that are scared to move forward. Not because they're sissies, but because they inevitably try to pull me back to their level. "Like if you're a 90's baby with no baby" has got to be my biggest pet peeve. Yeah, I have a baby. I happen to love her a great deal and couldn't imagine my life without her. It makes me sad to see people my age bagging on the fact that people their age are getting married. So what? Some of us are lucky enough to find the person we want to be with for the rest of our lives earlier than others. I can't understand why people treat me like being married and having a child is some kind of curse. I'm so lucky to have my family and I'm so happy to be where I am!
So, I guess I'm not normal for my age. I don't like to go out and party, sleep around or do drugs. I like to be a wife, and a mother, and someone who is doing something with their time here instead of squandering it away like an ungrateful child. I don't want to be a thirty year old who still lives in their parent's basement, who never went to school, all alone at some minimum wage fast food job. Everybody grows up, not everybody matures. Nobody can stop time, so why would you stop yourself?
"If you stop moving forward, you're moving backwards." I refuse to stop; shouldn't you?

I love reading your blog. It gives me this feeling so that I know what you are going through. Thank you so much. I dont want to be one of those kids either I actually want to find my guy and want to get married early. You help me realize that I am not alone with this. Thank you so much!
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